Here I am, 42 years old and honestly, how did I get here? Yeah yeah, the natural passing of time, but really, HOW? I don’t feel this old (maybe in the knees and hips), I still feel like a young adult at best, no matter how much life experience I rack up.
One of my friends asked me the other day if I like being older and honestly, that was probably the first time I stopped to think about my answer. I do like it. I feel content. I’m more secure in my relationships than I’ve ever been but also in myself. I feel like that life experience mentioned above has molded me into a pretty sound person.
Sure, there are things I want to change and that will probably always be the way but I am ridiculously blessed and I know it. With all that in mind I thought I’d set myself some Level 42 goals because it’s good to always be always aiming for something, however small. I plan to grow my hair, concentrate on Wicca and spell casting – visit a couple of places – but I also have some additional plans.
In no particular order:
Cut down on spending
Recently I totted up how many times I’d ordered from ASOS this year (so far) and I’m too embarrassed to share the figure. I’ve been leaning on shopping for way too long as an emotional top up and it is no longer something I want in my life.
80% of the time I return the order anyway and that almost makes it worse. All that wasted time and energy returning packages. I could be reading!
So, no more… waste. No more fast fashion – more of a sensible attitude towards my finances. Like a proper 40 something.
This one is pretty self-explanatory. I want to draw and colour more, it makes me happy. I’m under no illusion about my talents but that’s not the point. Being bad at something and doing it anyway is freeing.
Guess who got a Hobbycraft voucher to spend on materials for her birthday?
In the new year I’m going to look for a burlesque class. I’m sick of hating on my body so I’m going to start celebrating it instead. That simple.
I’m not looking to be the next (fat) Dita Von Teese but I’ve been inspired by a gorgeous plus size dancer on Instagram and let me tell you, she makes it look hottttt.
To quote Penny in Dirty Dancing:
“God wouldn’t have given you maracas if he didn’t want you to shake ’em…”
This point will hopefully play into the next one.
Make more time for boning
I want to start making more time for sex. With a full-time job and a busy social life, it’s easy to put it off most nights. It’s not fair and I don’t want to put it in second place anymore.
My husband is fine and I want to jump him – but we do need to make time and take our time. I’ll be making more effort from now on, and if that means putting on more Marvin Gaye and practicing my new burlesque moves then bring it.
Sign up for Astrology and Tarot courses
These are my next courses and I’m really excited about them. I’ve loved my Wicca diplomas so much and I think of astrology and tarot as an extension of those.
I don’t know where any of my new knowledge will lead me, I’m just open to magic and that’s enough for now.
Buy a home
This is definitely the biggest goal on the list and the scariest – and maybe this isn’t something you’re supposed to talk about openly – but we’ve been offered some help in this area and hopefully next year will be the year we move forward. This is one of the main reasons I want to be more sensible with any spare cash we have – I can’t honestly borrow money or take on something so committed while still being a thoughtless shopper. It’s just not the one.
I hope this happens for us, I’m sure it will but I’m under no illusion – when we buy we won’t be able to buy in central Brighton and leaving it is massive. It will be worth it though.
So these are the goals I plan to stick to in my next year on Earth – I’ll keep you posted on my progress. Until then…